What Is Ego Death?
Ego Death!!!
After a stage of total hibernation, that took place in July, many of us were visited by “Ego death” or a more gentle way of calling it “Upgrading to a Newer Version of You”.
What is an Ego Death?
Ego death is purely the transition between one version of ourselves and another. Around each one of us is a set of matrixes that take account of our ego. These ego matrixes provide us our identity. Several of the belief systems that we carry out to express ourselves will transform as we develop and spiritually grow. This is neither good nor bad; it is just the way this reality is designed to grant us to have a unique experience on this lovely planet. It is impossible to be existent in this reality and serve without an ego.
We are creating thru each thought. These thoughts start to form energetic matrixes and occasionally we have a clash concerning whatever we are wanting and whatever we are living. We desire another job, and then we are afraid to lose our current income. We aren’t happy in our marriage or being alone but we don’t know what to do about it. We think we want change, but we like the security of the known. At times we are forming a large vibrational gap concerning our current life and our vision for our life. That finally it will crash into the physical and initiate an ego death. The extra vibrational pressure amongst these two forms of ourselves, the extra melodramatic the ego death will be.
Today many people are coming into contact with ego deaths lately for the reason that the planet is growing so rapidly. There is a stage in stuck between the old, as the new is approaching, before the new is securely fixed in the physical. In the course of an ego death, the ego is literally integrating with the new form of truth that is to come. If life did not transition in this fashion, it would be too rough. So we have these great depressed periods of integration.
The ego death that numerous of us are going through today is purely as real, solely as sound as what I went through. The most painful stages of ego death are the ones happen when we are still trying to function in the world.
An Ego Death Often Accompanies these Events:
An Accident
Health Crisis
End of a Relationship
Experiencing a Huge Betrayal
Sudden Loss of a Job
Sudden large increase in cash flow
Use of Drugs
Kundalini Explosions
Witnessing trauma such as war
Retiring
Something traumatic happening to someone we love
Powerful sexual experiences
Typical Signs and Symptoms of an Ego Death
Strong sense that something is wrong
Sense of panic that cannot be attached to a particular thought
Uncontrollable anxiety
Sense of urgency in combination with the sense of panic.
Feeling that something needs to be fixed right now – NOW!
Feeling Lost
Feeling a complete loss of control
Overwhelming urge to run
Lack of comfort – chicken noodle soup, a warm blanket and a cup of hot chocolate will do nothing
More panic at the realization that old comforts don’t work
Constant, relentless stirring of the mind
Inability to identify the problem – sense that something is wrong
Constant mind searching that leads no where
Complete inability to identify the source of feelings
Feeling icky, tired, slow or lethargic
Feels like one day you woke up in a different world
Feels like everything is pointless
A sense of death often accompanied with thoughts of death
Changes in response to food
Loss of identity
Emotional rawness with a need to isolate
Ego death is a temporary, transitional stage. I am not talking about mental illness here. I am talking about a stage in spiritual growth.
During an ego death, a portion of a person’s identity is being eroded. It is like a rewiring of the brain. It is an electrical change.
During this shift, a person will often have to find something wrong to attach to. It can be money or death. This change can feel so frightening that a person will attach to a death thought rather than have no thought to hang on to. It is not uncommon for people in an ego death to plan their funeral, imagine they have a terminal illness or even go to the emergency room to seek a diagnosis only to be told that there is nothing wrong with them. Ego death passes. It is an energetic adjustment – that is all. These are not mentally ill people who keep doing the same thing year after year. They are people who are in some form of expansion.
Watching ego death is similar to breaking horses. A horse that goes totally into flight can kill itself. It doesn’t matter if there is real danger or not. A horse can get so spooked that it will kill itself in an attempt to get away from a danger that may or may not be real.
That is exactly what ego death can look like – the mind goes so crazy that it runs out of control. Directly on the other side of this transition there is no fear. It’s panic – a process – then some new level of understanding with more peace and more freedom
How do we manage during an Ego Death?
Honor what your body needs.
During my awakening I took up to 4 baths a day and I lived in a one piece sweat suit. I frequented hot springs and spent alot of time
just sitting in nature. My body became so sensitive that my diet was comprised of rice, eggs and vegetables. Processed foods would
throw me into a vomiting migraine for about a day.
Be Easy on Yourself
You are birthing a new version of yourself. Treat yourself like a mother in labor.
Know that It is Temporary and It is Normal Not to Believe It
The two questions that everyone in an ego death asks are: 1) what do I do to make this get over faster? 2) How do I know that I am really in an ego death?
No one knows exactly how fast a shift will happen, but forcing it to happen faster is going to slow it down. Allowing the energy to move by doing nothing is going to accelerate the shift and make it less painful. Even people who can feel their own Kundalini moving doesn’t believe they are in an awakening. It is pretty universal that most people think they are going crazy during an ego death. Have you ever known someone who was mentally ill and everyone knew they were mentally ill but them? In other words mentally ill people don’t usually know that they are mentally ill. This is the opposite. Everyone can explain to a person in a spiritual awakening that they are not crazy and they think they are. Again – this website is about spiritual awakenings – not mental illness. If you think that you need to be treated for mental illness, and then by all means do. Ego death is temporary. It will pass. Every single person that I have met in this kind of a transition doesn’t believe that they are in this transition. This was true for me also. We think it is going to last forever and we have gone crazy. It is temporary and you are not crazy.
What Happens After An Ego Death?
After an ego death, we are functioning again but with a higher sense of awareness and freedom. On the other side of an ego death is more joy and more freedom.
Qualities of a Dense, Rigid Ego Matrix (Before any real ego transformation)
Is Protective
Cannot be in Reality but thinks it is
Views everything based on the past
Projects into the future constantly (can’t stay in present time)
Chooses random thoughts and decides they are real
Tends to be greedy
Views the world from the perspective of self
Tends to take everything personally
Sees through a filter of fear
Has a hard time seeing the big picture
Can get stuck in fight or flight
Has a hard time staying neutral
Has little or no patience
Has trouble having true compassion for others
Sees things in black and white
Sees us versus them
Has no real power on its own
Likes to argue
Finds security in groups
Has a need to understand things
Cannot see itself
Tends to repeat things over and over
Qualities of A Healthy Ego in an Awakened State
Loves itself and loves all beings as one with itself
Is really not capable of hating
Enjoys the physical world and all aspects of physical life
Takes each day as it comes but plans when necessary
Rolls with the punches or goes with the flow
Free to experience full range of emotions
Identifies with clear purpose
Lives pretty much free from guilt, shame and unworthiness
Has a sense of ease about life
Knows that there is perfection in all of the no perfection
Sees the blessing in every life experience
Can freely use the mind and body for pleasure and good deeds
Accepts others and their individual paths
Has no need to argue or be right
Has a true humbleness to its nature
Longs for nothing
Easily stays in the present moment
Has access to infinite intelligence and embraces the mysterious
I really hope by reading this article many of you will understand what Ego death is and to please remember that this too will pass and you will come out of it feeling like bliss.
Love and Light to you all,
Seda Goksel
www.sedagoksel.com
Information taken by Mary Plaza
